Archives for the month of: December, 2011

Be grateful not only for the material things,

but for the people placed in your life that stick by you, lift you up, and love you..




just having fun.


Currently awake and decided to google my life number.

And this is what I found..



“People with a Life Path number 8 do not feel safe unless they have found a way to establish financial security. 

It is difficult for an Eight to take advice. When they make a choice, they must feel it is their decision, NOT SOMEONE ELSES. As a result, they do tend to learn the hard way. Eights are very honest and by being so blunt, they unintentionally hurt feelings. Although they can sometimes appear insensitive, what is going on inside them is the exact opposite. They do feel deeply about everything that goes on in their lives. People with a Life Path 8 are born with natural leadership skills. If your Life Path is an 8 you are very ambitious and goal oriented. You have strong organizational skills and broad vision which make you successful in business. 

Eight represents authority, material wealth, ambition, and caution. A person with the number 8 in their chart will work diligently to achieve their goals. This person would make a good business manager and leader. They thrive on hard work, and more than any other Life Path number are prone to becoming a workaholic. They are very good with money and their work ethic makes it possible for them to acquire wealth. This pursuit of materialistic gains can hold some pitfalls for them, including a tendency to become unscrupulous in their efforts to make money, or neglect of thier family and loved ones while working to earn money. 

If you are an Eight, you are a good judge of character and attract the right kind of people to work with you toward your vision. This makes you a natural executive and excellent in the business or political arena. You have a need for success, and a strong desire to be recognized for your achievements. 

Because you consider status very important you may be tempted to live above your means. You should also pay special attention to telling and showing your loved ones that you care – being a good provider isn’t the only way of doing this. 

Life Path number 8 is also a number of returning karma and opportunity. You are reviewing the lessons you’ve brought from other lifetimes, and reinforcing what you choose to keep. Below are some key points you might want to take into consideration to help you on your path …

The eight life path is the time to learn what really matters. Things of dishonesty in the past may present themselves again in this lifetime. Even important choices that you made well may revisit you.

Eight has a built-in sense of the relationship between the past, present and future. It’s almost impossible for you to look at a situation and not also see what probably led to it and what will happen next. You can probably see the best way to improve the situation, too.

You’ll probably have a recurring pattern of people entering, leaving and returning to you. Things and people just have a way of returning to you eventually.

You could be a wonderful counselor, helping other people to see the patterns and recurring events of their lives. You also probably have the compassion to do it, just remember that sometimes your direct honesty can be hard to take.

Know that another possible interest or career could be anything involving history and antiques. You could be the guy with great stories down at the local antique store, or some body’s high school history teacher .”


Love, support, trial and error is almost everything one may need in life to be a better person.  I am extremely grateful for the support system I do have. They may not always tell me what I want to hear and sometimes it isn’t going to always FEEL good, but they’re mines.  The love and support you receive from a friend, a mother, a significant other can help you through some situations you may not want to face.  So be grateful in who chooses to look your way and see you out of a bad moment. Because that’s what life consists of, good and bad moments, phases, SEASONS.  And life places different people in your cypher, some to see you at high places and some to kick you when you’re down.  I listen to Corrine Bailey Rae “Seasons” and think about my own phases and seasons in life.  Glad that I could evolve and learn from each one because if I hadn’t I’d still be in fucked up place, with fucked up people to see me continually hurt myself. 

I was hanging with a few friends and we were outside chatting about the weather. I hate being cold and it’s the middle of December.  We kept mentioning how uncomfortable this winter weather was and I kept saying how much I HATED being cold.  Why couldn’t it be spring and summer all year round?  Obviously for the sake of the Earth and this Universe, summer all year round would result in some not so good experiences yet, I was sure I’d rather have it that way.  My friend said she used to feel the same way until she started to appreciate each season.  The next thing she told me, if I remember correctly, “YOU CAN’T GO THROUGH LIFE WAITING FOR THE NEXT SEASON”.  At first I was thrown off because I honestly never looked at the Universe in such a way. I just knew my body didn’t like the feel of cold and I much rather it be  90 degrees outside.  It opened me up just a little more.  I have been going through life waiting for the NEXT best thing as opposed to enjoying each season, each moment, for what it was.  I felt so let down.  Like I had let myself down because as a person I knew the BEST thing to do was to cherish each moment in life and not let it falter.  I knew to take each step in stride and hope for the best out of ANY situation.  But real life doesn’t always turn out how you expect and it doesn’t always make you feel that way.  I let the worst and the best of my circumstances and situation get the best of me.  I was weak.  I’m so glad I had a friend to tell me something so small yet so real because somewhere along the way, I lost myself.

So for yesterday and today and the many days of my life, I’ve come to the conclusion no matter what the situation is, to appreciate each season as it comes.  And I mean that in a general and literal sense.  To appreciate the snow, the rain, the wind, the flowers, and the sun.  To appreciate the blessings and the hardships placed in my life.  To appreciate the food on my table, the bed I sleep in every night, and all of the things I constantly take for granted.  To appreciate my family and friends no matter how crazy our situations are in life.  To appreciate the love I receive from a significant other because that very love sees you through a bad day or another heartbreak.  To appreciate the time someone gives you out of the kindness of their heart because they want to make you smile and rather see you happy.  Not everyday in life is a good day, you have to learn to weather the storm. Without these blessings everyday and the people in my cypher that truly love and support me I am very small.  I am small compared to the greatness and willingness of others.  I hope to make a change in myself for my familys’ sake. For my lovers’ sake.  For my friends that prove they are true. 

I am no longer what I say I am but what I show you.

Carry me, for sometimes, I too get weak.

Always wanted to be the reason someone smiles..

Be it helping them cross a street or telling someone theyre beautiful.

So here I give you Indigo Thrift.

For the vintage thrift lovers..

For the guys and gals who always look stylish and amazing at affordable prices.

Hope you like what you see and if you do..






I have had the pleasure of blogging Herds of the Fathers once before

These beautiful men and their drive, ambition, and love for creating

continues to inspire me and keeps me grounded in a way;

small business owners making a name for themselves despite adversity.

Well here’s another one..

of me.

I am sweet and kind

always willing to give

to be given is nice and I appreciate that too

but satisfaction on another face is better than gold

because I have made change

I have moved them in some way or another

what makes me..Queen?

the ability to hurt and be hurt and bounce back

the struggles I have seen and have yet to see

cause life isn’t perfect no matter how hard you practice

and you alway get karma whether or not you asked it

what makes me..alright?

the knowing of negative thoughts and how to negate them

keep them far out of reach so I don’t become them

because we all have moments..mines more frequent than others

and we all have skeletons in our closets

yet we are not sistas and brothas

and I’ve been fucked up and have done fucked up things

but what makes me Queen?

the decency to be true

or at least try to.

cause lying takes up energy

but lying to yourself is trife

what makes me heavenly?

I don’t know..

could be the softness of my lips

hardness in my heart

cause I’ve been scorned a time or too many

but here I am

broken and wild

rigid and cold

and on my best days warm as fuck

cause  I still cry about abandonment and hopelessness

and I still run from a broken mother with broken promises

how can you give someone love you’ve never had

so I dont blame her.

my uncle walked right pass me today

maybe he didn’t notice?

I had almost died cause I wanted so badly to tell him how great life was

even if it wasn’t

with the intent to laugh out loud and rejoice that




what makes me Queen is the adversities I face





I am not a statistic and don’t intend to be one

they’ll make me think they have my life planned out for me

in ten years come back free

I am Queen

that piece on the board you just can’t fuck with.